Hello and a very warm welcome to EM
There’s no time like a global crisis for starting something new, so let’s dive right in and perhaps we will find out why you have stumbled across my page, and what it is that I have to share that you might find interesting, hopefully enjoy, could possibly want, or maybe even need.
This has been an interesting year indeed and it looks set to continue that way for the foreseeable future. Yet somehow in the midst of all this uncertainty and chaos, the time feels right for me to be launching myself out into the world. I have just secured a publishing contract for my autobiography with the dubious title Weird Shit! Sitting processing that momentous event and thinking back to where my life began, it is a miracle of monumental proportions that such a thing could ever happen.
I come from very humble beginnings and for the most part lived an incredibly sheltered and blinkered life with limited scope and experience. I bumbled along minding my own business and generally making a large hash of things and it wasn’t until my thirties that I realised I actually had command of my own existence and could in fact direct my life in the manner of my choosing. This was such a departure from how I was raised that I had no idea how to onboard that concept. My limited thinking had no receptors for concepts such as choice and freedom. I was gainfully employed, divorced, a mother to two young children, and suffering from mystery illnesses that I could find no answers for in the field of medicine. One day I happened across a woman who invited me to join her meditation group. I didn’t even know such a thing existed. In the beginning I was suspicious, nervous, and at times downright afraid of the people I met because I had no frame of reference for the language they used, the concepts they espoused, or the joy and freedom that appeared to come so easily to them. It was only once I settled in and embraced what I secretly thought of as the Weird Shit! that I realised just how off course my life actually was.
Having dared to extricate myself from an unhappy marriage I found myself in a state of confusion and panic. I had this urgent feeling that there had to be more to life than what I had been dealt. Divorce, for me, was the equivalent of The Great Escape, it wasn’t something I had undertaken lightly; it was born out of a desperation to feel valid in my own life. And yet there I was liberated and alone, feeling judged by everyone I knew, covered in shame for having broken vows; consumed with guilt for having hurt someone else, for having rocked my children’s lives off their axis’, and feeling like I had run out of options. That great escape seemed to have led me into a large crocodile infested swamp and I was in trouble. I lived with such enormous fear and self-doubt on the inside whilst projecting a tough girl façade to the world. Then I discovered a whole new realm of possibilities and realities within the quantum space, the world of energy and spirituality, and I have never looked back. Through everything I learned along the way I came to realise that nothing in my life up to that point was of my own design or construct, perhaps with the exception of the great escape. I was held hostage by enormous triggers that evoked inappropriate and often times overly emotional reactions from me. I was lurching from one crisis to the next getting more and more miserable and physically ill. Something had to change.
“Nothing in life is really a problem, until it becomes a real problem for you, and then changes becomes inevitable”.
And so I joined that meditation group and I sat there in a state of suspended animation with my less than one micro gram of self-worth, pretending to the outside world that I had my shit together, and I did as the leader suggested. My mother always told me that curiosity killed the cat. Well! the day I crossed that woman’s threshold and joined that mediation group, I took my first quantum leap into a world that has both fascinated and delighted me and has taken me on a voyage of discovery that I never dreamed was possible. I invite you to take that journey with me over the next while as I introduce to you, in the simplest of terms, some of the exciting things I discovered along the way that have changed my life for the better.
My intention is to share what I have learned, so that others who may be struggling in life, might find something to help them. The more we know, the easier it is to make decisions about our lives. Knowledge is indeed power and in these times of chaos and uncertainty, the time for each of us to empower ourselves is surely right now. We could all stand to experience more joy in our lives. If what you are currently doing isn’t providing that, then perhaps it’s time for some life-scrutiny, some self-reflection, and the onboarding of some new information. Do you relate to any of the following?
- Who am I and what is my purpose?
- I feel lost in my own life
- After the upheaval of the Covid-19 pandemic I no longer have the desire to fit back into life as I knew it
- I often feel overly emotional
- I am subject to bouts of anger for no reason
- I feel resentful of my loved ones
- I’ve lost my passion
- I feel afraid of the future
- I am always ill and never seem to get fully better
- I hurt myself for no reason
- I am at odds with my family
- I often feel confused
- I feel like I don’t fit it
- I don’t feel loved
- I’m afraid of being judged
- I wish someone else could just make it all better.
At times I have identified with all of them. These are some pretty powerful indicators that something in your life could do with a revisit. Don’t panic though as this is the beauty of life where the only constant is change and nothing stays the same forever. That sentence in itself might trigger enormous fear and anxiety in you, or maybe excitement, or perhaps curiosity. Well I am about to launch myself into an online venture in the social media space where I have little experience and whilst I am excited on the outside, I admit to feeling more than a little anxious on the inside. However, I have learned that little of any worth happens in my comfort zone so here goes nothing!!
I shall be sharing what I learned along the way that helped me get my life back on track; the subjects are many and varied and all (in my humble opinion) exciting. Some are controversial and I shall offer you my understanding of them. I encourage you at all times to question and decide for yourself what you want to accept and onboard. I’m always interested to hear your opinions and I encourage feedback. However, it is essential to understand this vital truth as we journey together:
We don’t have to agree on a single thing to be kind to one another.
So, disagree with me by all means, own your different perspective, but know that I do not tolerate bullying, shaming or disrespect on any level and that is a hard and fast boundary for me. We will of course discuss boundary setting in a future conversation.
If you want to connect with me virtually for a private session of energy work (I take a very limited number of bookings), drop me an email at firstname.lastname@example.org. Before I sign off for today let me share with you my intention and you’ll see why I chose EM – Energy Matters for my work identity. I have always had a particular fondness for words beginning with EM, I love the feel of the energy behind each word.
My intention is to listen with EMpathy
and help EMbolden you to dream.
As you EMerge from your learned way of being,
I will celebrate with you as you EMbrace your full potential.
As you EMancipate yourself from your limitations,
you EMpower yourself to live with greater clarity and joy!
Until next time when I shall introduce you to the concept of Energy and where it all began for me, be kind to one another and honour yourself as the unique and incredibly special soul that you are.
© Copyright 2020 – Janice Melmed